Sunday, September 30, 2012

I'm Back Bitches and I've Got a Story to Tell!!

I'm back w/more miles under my belt and more to talk about.

I needed a break!  Not a break from running!!  But a break from blogging, from tweeting, from reading about running, reading about fitness, and reading about nutrition.  All of it had suddenly became so overwhelming to me. I felt like I wasn't living up to what everyone else was doing and what I thought I should be doing.  Even though I've been logging more miles than I had ever ever done and doing video workouts, and planks, and burpees, and lunges, and stretches and eating better and cooking from home and drinking more water than I thought I could drink.  I felt I wasn't doing enough.  I started to compare my fitness life to other fitness lives and it was just turning into a thing that I never wanted it all to be.  I needed a change and a break.  I needed to feel normal again and feel like myself.  I feel like this world of the internet is so much sometimes and everyone is always in such a "happy" "good" place and it seems like everything is so effortless for some.  I'm not a pinterest quote or picture, I'm a real person.  Not to mention, I'm older and I've been sittin' around for a lot of years.  My body hurts, my feet hurt, my hips hurt, my legs are constantly swollen.  My boots from last winter are tighter on my swollen man legs, my skinny jeans are tighter on my swollen man calves.  I have to wear my running shoes to work some times because I can't walk in anything else.  

HOWEVER, all that being said, I emotionally feel more confident, more powerful, and stronger than I have since I was a girl playin' ball.  I'm in more control of so many things in my life.  I feel more positive on the outlook of my life. Fitness, running, and weight loss has completely changed my life.  Like a lot of things in my life it's a love/hate relationship, but I know now that it's one thing I can not and will not give up.

Here's what my training schedule looked like on a weekly basis for about 8 weeks until I decided to slow it down.  My alarm goes off 3 week days @ 4a.  I am up getting ready for my run @ 430, eating my banana w/almond butter and almond milk.  I'm out my door by 5a for no less than 4 miles a day.  It takes me almost an hour to run 5 so I have to be done running by 6a to be able to stretch properly, walk back to my apartment, and get ready for work.  (Later in my schedule it calls for sometimes 6-8 miles on a Wed so on those days I'm out by 430a..yep alarm @ 330a).  Since I don't eat breakfast out anymore I make my toast and/or eggs in the morning before I leave.  I leave my apartment @ 720 to catch a 745 boat and I'm @ work by 9a and work until 6p.  Then, I was coming home to do videos, burpees, and planks every single night.   Since I ran on both Saturday (long runs) and Sundays and also sometimes was doing yoga, there was limited time for grocery shopping and a social life, and not to mention cleaning my apartment and doing laundry and everything in between.

You know, I say all that to say, man...HUGE PROPS, HIGH FIVES, KISSES, and everything to all you women out there who are doing all this with kids/families and not just one kid, but multiple.  I seriously don't know how you do it.  I'm not complaining about my schedule, this is what I want to do right now in my life, but MAN...it has been a real roller coaster ride.  

I've been thinking about this Marathon for 2 years.  1 year to qualify and 1 year to get ready.  November 4th will be one of the biggest days of my life.  It'll be a day I've worked hard for, I've trained for, I've suffered injuries for, and am sooooo looking forward to.  I will be ready and nothing's going to stop me @ this point if I have to crawl to the finish line.  Plus, my whole family's coming and I cannot bow out now.  It's a done deal.  A huge deal!!  I have something to prove to myself and I'll be damned if I'm not going to do that.

I've started thinking about next year's plans and what I wanna do to follow up one of the biggest days ever.  I will rest for a few weeks and let my hips heal properly before I get back out there, but I will not stop running.  Next year I wanna do mud runs (hello Tough Mudder), and NYRR half marathon series.  That's a half marathon in every borough.  I think I want to qualify for another marathon in 2014.  I don't know about that one yet, but I'm thinking about it.  Check back in w/me on November 5th and see how I feel.  But, I also want to spend more time @ the gym and toning my body to get strong.  Some kickboxing would be nice.  I love kickboxing.  

Okay Okay..So, now for the DL on my running the last few weeks.  The past 3 Saturdays have been my longest most important runs yet.  When my 2 marathon buddies were running 16 & 18 miles previously, I was recovering from my hip soreness and when they ran 20 I was getting back out and running only 13.  I was so jealous they were able to do 20 and I was just doing a measly 13.  But, I knew it was coming for me and damn.....it sure did.  I ran my 16 miles with all of my weekly runs during the week so when it came to after 16 miles I was feeling pretty exhausted and I also did my Sunday run.  When I woke up on Monday I was feeling exhausted and burned out from all the training.  So, I decided to take my weekly runs as they come and not be so anal about all of it.  I've started 1-2 times during the week in the morning and I've been going to the gym @ night to strengthen my legs and hips and work on my core.  I HATE working my core.  I'm so weak there and so self conscious about it.  However, I am starting to see changes in the midsection.  It's not happening overnight, but it is happening.  :)  yay!!

The next Saturday I ran my 18 miles.  I couldn't believe it.  I didn't sleep that well that night, as my hips and legs were really hurting, but I got up the next day and I felt a lot better.  Maribel and I attempted Sunday Funday.  We went to a beer garden, had a good time, and continued to drink.  We both needed breaks and it felt sooo good.

Now forthe gold, yesterday I ran the longest run I've ever ran. It was four hours of running and jogging.  This, my friends, is where I tested my strength and my mental capability to keep going.  Once I hit mile 18 I was so happy and felt so good because I had now run more than ever.  But, @ mile 17 I had to go deep in my head and focus. I had to block out everything around me.  I was pumping myself up and telling myself how strong I am, how strong my legs and feet are, how I've worked so hard and I told myself a million times I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.  This pretty much went on for the next 3 miles.  Sometimes I would slip into am I capable of this?  Am I really going to be able to do this?  Did I try this too soon?  Did I work hard enough before I made the decision to run this marathon?  I was not out of breath and I was not feeling tired.  Everything I was feeling about stopping was all in my head.  This was such a mind game.
I needed a change in scenery for this run so I ran over the Brooklyn Bridge 2 times (once during a protest), I ran through Brooklyn over to the Williamsburg Bridge and decided I was not ready to go back into Manhattan and ran BACK over the Williamsburg, BACK through Brooklyn, and BACK over the Brooklyn Bridge.  Ran BACK over to the W. Side Highway and still had 9 MORE MILES TO GO.  AAAAGGGHHHHH!!!!   I fueled back up on GU, filled up my water bottles again and munched on a bar the whole way.  Keep in mind, I was hungry back @ mile 7!!!  Oh MY!!!  Then.....I was finally done and smelled burgers!!!  For those of you who don't know...I LOVE BURGERS!!!!  So, of course I got myself one.  Wouldn't you!!  Hey, don't judge!  It was Grass Fed Angus with a special sauce.  It was freakin' amazing.  I've recently started loving Grass Fed burgers.  yumyumyum. OH yeah, and I had another burger (lamb) last night out w/Maribel and my first pumpkin beer ever.  Have to say...NoT a fan of the pumpkin beer.

So, this is everything you've been missing out on for the last 3 weeks.  Aren't you lucky.  I know you probably think I'm crazy and a little miserable for all of this.  Who can blame you after the first couple of paragraphs.  I started out this post giving you honesty.  I wanted to make sure I don't put out the feeling that everything is hunky dorey and easy because it's not.  I've worked hard to get here.  I've changed a lot over the last 2 years.  Heck, I've changed since I started to train.  I'm more motivated and disciplined, but I know what it takes to get where I wanna go and I'm willing to take the bumps in the road along the way.  I know when November 4th comes around I will be ready.  I have 35 days from today til it's here.  I have 1 more 18, and 20 miles before the big day and I can't wait because I think they're going to feel better the 2nd time around.    Please please don't take what I've said the wrong way.  I'm doing what I love and I'm doing what makes me feel good.  I feel so accomplished and so happy for the changes in my life I've made.  My other goal this year is to jump out of a plane.  I would like to still try to do it after the marathon, but I am DEF doing next year if it doesn't happen this year.  I am all about goals and striving to make the next year better than the last.

On that note, I'm going to bed.  It's past my bedtime.  I've been watching NJ Housewives while writing and now WWHL is on.  I hope you get my honesty here.  I wanted put in some pics, but it's too late now.  I'm tired.  I feel like I have more to say, but I think I've rambled enough for tonight

So, to all of you out there.....thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy because I truly enjoy writing this blog and keeping you up to date if you're so inclined to read it. Much appreciated!!

Deuces...
kc
xoxoxoxoxo

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Just Doing ME!!!!

Bueno!  Bueno!  Bueno!!  I like starting off in Spanish.  :)

Okay.  Here goes.  I've been dreading this this week and questioned myself if I should give reasons/excuses as to why some of these goals were not completely accomplished.  I totally beat myself up over things so I've just decided to tell you what's been done and what's not been done, post goals for this week, move on and talk about something fun.

Kick Butt Goal -- Continue to follow my running schedule and work towards my Saturday long run.  Done.  Every day.   Okay, Okay..... I cannot tell a lie.  I didn't do Thursday's 3 miles.  Went for Happy Hour instead.  It was calling my name (I swear).  Hey, at least it was for charity.  And yes....I donated. Oh yeah, and I met a couple of other runners.  A chick whose ran several marathons.  Way impressive.  This was for TEAM in training so there were a few runners there.  Thanks to Q for inviting me!!!  

Core Goal -- Do Blogilates videos 3 times during the week and on Saturday after my long run.  Also do my daily #plankaday and my 30 burpees EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  This I did do.  And...no..I'm not lying.  I did Blogilates 3 times and also on Saturday I did my lunges and squats before I ran my 13 miles, also during my long run, and I did tons when I got back to Staten Island.  I did them on the Boardwalk along w/my #plankaday and also 30 Burpees.  Oh Crap!  I didnot do my burpees and plankaday on Thursday when I went to Happy Hour.  ugghhh..

Food Goal -- Eat from my fridge every day.  That means breakfast, lunch, and dinner.  Try making something new at least twice this week.  I wanna make a little pizza one night.   I did make something new 3 times this week!  Yay!!  Does that extra day make up for anything I screwed up on above?  Just sayin'.  I got a new grill pan this week which I'm so excited about.  My chicken is so much tastier now.  That's really all I've used it for so far.  I told you my cooking skills are lacking.  Oh yeah, I also got a food scale.  Haven't used it yet, but I plan on it.  womp...womp....


Rest Goal -- Be in bed by 11p if not before every night!!!!    Ummm...let me think.  This I did.  Even happy hour night.  I got an early boat home and was in bed by I think it was like 1045 or so? Definitely before 11p, I promise...

Getting Rid of Goal -- Gotta get rid of my daily Red Bulls.  I did pretty good last week.  ...Not Good.  That Is All!!!

Calendar -- Get myself a dry erase board to write my goals and track my progress through the week and into the month. Ummm...nooo. Enough said.  :)



I guess this week I've learned that I'm not as disciplined as I thought I would be.  I live in an awesome city and sometimes it's hard to say NO!  Well, for me anyways.  I've always been that person that wants to be in the middle of things you know.  But, the good thing is there's always another day and another week to get back on track.  
But that being said, I never really lost track.  It's not like I sat on the couch and watched tv every day after work or slept in in the morning.  I still did my runs (13.1 in the rain), I stilled cooked @ home 5 days this week. That includes Breakfast, lunch, and dinner.  That's not too shabby and better than what I was doing about a month ago.  So, I guess I can't be too hard on myself.  I really need to get rid of the Red Bull tho!  Other than the runs, cooking, blogilates THAT is a MUST.  The other 3 will always be a staple in my weekly goal and what I strive to be better in every day!!! 

Okay.  Glad that's over.  Moving on now...

So today I had the AWESOME & AMAZING opportunity to go to NYC Wanderlust Festival.  This was an amazing opportunity and something I wish I could do w/awesome wonderful people every single Sunday to get ready for the week.  I went w/my staple NYC BFF Maribel.  The event was also taking place in Los Angeles @ the Santa Monica Pier.  Yoga in the City festival benefits charities all over the world where wonderful beautiful people travel all around the world to teach yoga to people suffering from environmental damages, food shortages, etc.  Today in NYC they raised over $9k to benefit their charities.  The day started with Universal chants from Suzanne Sterling.  This started off the whole afternoon on such an awesome level for what was to come.  The yoga started from there.  Throughout the session there was a lot of moves & poses that I've never done before.  It became increasingly more difficult as the time went on.   We ended the session with a Wheel Pose (aka Back bend). PS.  I haven't done a back bend since probably 6th grade when I was in gymnastics.  lol.  But, I thought..WTH and actually did it 3 times!!!  It felt amazing!!  Like, I wanna do one now.  hahah..All in all, I would not have wanted to spend my afternoon anywhere else.  The weather was PERFECT!  The sun was HOT!  The grass COOL!  and the People AWESOME!  When we were finished I felt so relaxed and so ready to take on what is next. 

I didn't do my blogging duties @ the festival.  This is the only picture I took.  Slap on the hand.  This was @ the entrance into the venue.  The limit was 1000 people to register and I believe they sold out.  So, this picture doesn't even do justice of the event.  But believe me, it was awesome!   



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And so here we are, 8 weeks til the Marathon and I don't think I've told you, but I'm scared to death of this thing.  It's going to take all I've got to get through that day. Hell, it's taking all I've got just to get there.  So, I'll keep preparing the best I can, the best I know how in the most positive way I can.  Every day is a different and new day and I just take one more step to make it happen.  

I'm not posting goals this week because I know what I need to do every day and every week and I can't take the way I beat up on myself when I don't do that goal perfectly.  It was not as easy for me as I thought it was going to be.  I'm just going to enjoy every day as it is and DO ME!!  That's all I've got for now.  I put enough pressure on myself.  Not to say I won't do it in the future, I just don't want to do it this week.  Not really what I'm feeling for the week.   

So, there you have it.  One more week down til Marathon and we're going to be here before we know it.  I have a lot of work to do.  I've run over 13 miles for the last 2 weekends in row.  Next Saturday is 16.  That's the most I've ever ran.  I'm looking forward to knocking out the short runs this week and getting to that day.  I get so nervous every single run, but also excited.  It's what keeps me going.  I love the push, the accomplishment, the confidence it all gives me.  All of this is the high I look forward to every single time I run.  At the end I evaluate how my body feels and what I can do differently next time.  Lately I'm running cold turkey w/no Music.  This really gets me in my zone and thinking about how I'm feeling.  Tons of time to think when you're in the middle of 13 miles.  However, I've been singing that damn Taylor Swift Song for 3 days now.  Never Ever EVer Getting BAck TOgether.  Over and over.  It's on one of the Blogilates videos so I can't get it out of my head.  Anywayssss...that's it for this Sunday.  

OMG!  How could I forget!!!  Another awesome thing that happened this week....I became a SWEATPINK Ambassador.  Check out the Fit Approach website and find out the word we're spreading.  It's a really RAD group of women promoting positivity in healthy lifestyles.  They're doing things I can't even imagine.  I mean Ironmans, Marathons, Ultra Marathons!  Shit I can't even think about right now!!  But, we all blog about it, tweet about it, pinterest about it, and facebook about it.  I love it!  And I am so proud to be a part of something that only moves women forward, inspires, and is intent on helping others.  

Okay...really..That's it for the week!  
Keep it moving!  Pay it Forward!  

kc
xoxooxoxoxo




Monday, September 3, 2012

Week 1 of Goal Setting.

Hola!!!  Hola!!!  Hola!!!

Alright, gonna make this a quickie tonight.  It's late and I need to get to bed.  Getting back on the morning running train tomorrow!  YAY!

Hope everyone had a fabulous Labor Day weekend!  I had a good one.  Quiet for the most part and goooood.  Went on a Sunday Craft Beer Booze Crooze.  That was a lot of fun and I hung out w/my fave all weekend.


I kept the miles low this week due to my hip issues I've been having.  I only ran 15 miles during the week and did 13.5 on Saturday.  I was pretty stoked about that one.  I started off the run thinking I was only going to be going 10 miles, but I just kept going.  I was feelin' really good.  I was fueling along the away with gatorade, chomped my GU before I left the house and made it all the way to the Verrazano Bridge. It's a pretty quiet run early on Saturday morning in Staten Island (except a lot of DOGS) (Not a dog person!).  There aren't that many runners out on Staten Island.  It's not like being in Manhattan and seeing all the people on your run.  These are pics of the Verrazano Bridge.  This is where the race begins with 40k people.  Over in the distance is Manhattan and Central Park is where it ends.  We run through all 5 boroughs.



I told my mom I expect it to take about 5 hours or so to finish and she was like "What am I gonna do for 5 hours?  Stand there and wait for you to run by."  I thought that was so funny.  Yes, mom...Yes...you are.  lol.  Hopefully we'll map out a route for them to be able to go to each borough and watch.  That's the plan anyway.  We're going to have posters and everything!!! I'm so excited.  My mom and dad are both coming.  It's the first time for my Dad to come to NYC, so I can't wait to show him a few things.   Show him where I live and what it's like.  Beyond excited!!

After my Saturday run I met with Maribel to get her some running shoes.  She started running this weekend! I'm so excited and eventually we'll be going on runs together.  YAY!

I'm trying to start consciously eating better in order to give me more energy and to help get rid of my midsection.  On that note, we went to Trader Joe's and I attempted to load up my cart with healthier options.  Maribel's all into Nutrition ya know (food4thoughtnyc.wordpress.com).  She's sort of an expert and is totally helping me get into this whole eating better thing.  She even started us a pin board to help me w/recipes.  (That's what friends are for!).


With all the goodies I bought I made myself a yummy yummy delicious salad tonight.  It turned into so much more than I had originally planned.  I started adding and mixing and it just became so freakin' good.  I can't wait to take it to lunch tomorrow.  It has a ton of protein.  I'm not a fan of veggies, but I'm working on adding them into my diet.  Corn is my fave vegetable.  lol.  I know...My salad turned into more of a mexi-salad by the end and it was so filling.  I also don't like to cook, so when I tell you I spent nearly an hour making this damn salad, that is HUGE for me.  Lloyd used to try to teach me to cook when he was here and I was totally not having it.  So, now I"m stuck figuring it out by myself because I refuse to listen to him.  Stubborn asss.

I'm working on my core exercises and I've told you before I have discovered Cassey Ho (blogilates).  I'm having such a hard time working in both videos and my running all together thru the week.  It's been either one or the other.  With my sore hip I have GOT to work in my core training, squats, and lunges.  I did it all today before my 3 mile run and my run felt sooo good.  I just have to get stronger!!

That leads me to my weekly goals.  This will help me stay accountable for my actions and give you an update @ the end of the week on my progress.  I just know you will be waiting by your computer for the progress I've made.  Just kidding, obvi.  But, here it is...

Kick Butt Goal -- Continue to follow my running schedule and work towards my Saturday long run.

Core Goal -- Do Blogilates videos 3 times during the week and on Saturday after my long run.  Also do my daily #plankaday and my 30 burpees EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

Food Goal -- Eat from my fridge every day.  That means breakfast, lunch, and dinner.  Try making something new at least twice this week.  I wanna make a little pizza one night.

Rest Goal -- Be in bed by 11p if not before every night!!!!  

Getting Rid of Goal -- Gotta get rid of my daily Red Bulls.  I did pretty good last week.  Ended up going all week w/out one but then just had to have it on Friday.  Not doing that this week!

Calendar -- Get myself a dry erase board to write my goals and track my progress through the week and into the month.

These are all pretty challenging for me and so important.  They're really goals I should have every week.  I just need to stay focused with my eye on the PRIZE!  The prize first and foremost is my health, but the 2nd prize is definitely making it to the START line on November 4th.  I can't wait to tell that story

So, I guess that's it for now.  Maybe I'll write a random blog this week if I have time and give an update on my goals.  hmmmm...

What are you doing this week to stay focused and on track?  Let me know.  I would love to hear your progress.  It helps us all to stay inspired and motivated by each other.

Hope you all have a fabulous week!


KC
xoxoxoxo